What Do You Believe - In the Darkness

There are days that we feel the abundance of the latter rain and it overwhelms us.  Then there are days that all we see and feel is the abundance of darkness.  We have heard the term "latter rain" often.  It refers to a second soaking rain that helps to produce the harvest.  We often marvel at prophetic words that announce or confirm our calling in God.  Our heart leaps because truthfully those types of words seem to affirm us and give us value.  But, it is in the trying of the word that darkness consumes us.  What do you do when those you love the most seem to reject you?  Paul basically was alone.  He never married.  He had those in his life that he referred to as sons and so forth.  But, there were times when those same people he walked with seemingly didn't know him and they eventually parted ways.  Some of the time Paul was remiss in his assessment of character as in the case of John Mark.  But, there were times when there was no reconciliation.  Can two walk together unless they be agreed.  Oh, the tearing!

John the Baptist lived in the wilderness and ate honey and wild locusts.  He had disciples, but was alone.  Yet, the word of God says that God places the solitary, the lonely in families.  Such an oxymoron!  For it is in the darkest moment of our lives that we are alone and misunderstood.  The immature believer wants to cover their head or even worse walk away from the faith.  It's too hard and it hurts too bad; therefore, I will self-medicate.  I will "enjoy" feeding my flesh and attempting to numb my pain.

But, for those who are or strive to be a mature son, there is no going back.  You press toward the mark although at times your steps feel like cement about your feet and legs.  The time has come that the Father seeks those who will worship Him in spirit and in truth.  What is the truth?  The truth is His grace is enough.  For in our weakness, God is at His strongest in our lives.  It hurts and the knife cuts deep, oh so deep.  Chaos is all around and you cry out, Lord do you not care for me!  You said you loved me, so why does it hurt so bad?  Be of good cheer for He is faithful!  He has begun this work in you and I and He will be faithful to complete it.  Just as operations are needful and necessary to begin the healing, so is the cutting by the spirit necessary.  The circumcision of the heart is always the most painful because it cuts the wounds and the ucky things we have held the closest to our heart.  It is truly cutting the flesh, the things that do not produce the life of God in us.  In those times of darkness God is near and He is creating in you and I a longing that can only be satisfied by the soaking of the latter rain.  It is painful worship.

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

I will move ahead bold and confident,
Taking every step in obedience

While I'm Waiting
I will serve You
While I'm Waiting
I will Worship
While I'm Waiting
I will not faint
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

John Waller - While I'm Waiting