Day 12 of 100 - I have been thinking again and wondering about stuff. What amazes me is the thought that I am mature in God and in life. I know that I am physically older, but in my mind's eye I never get older. I suppose then it should come as no surprise how I still struggle with the small things in God. Some days I do well. Other days I worry about everything from bills to creditors to wasting time because I am physically getting older. As Paul said, "the good I would do, evil is always present." I keep saying grow me up Lord, but I am still so carnal. I am still such a baby sometimes. My earnest desire is NOT to complete 100 days just be able to say I did a 100 day consecration. My desire is to see and experience significant change in me. I do not always pick up my cross and don't even want to hear the word cross. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed and beat down. God is teaching me what it really means when the word says the joy of the Lord is my strength. Joy is not really an emotion, but a consistent, perpetual state of being. I rejoice in the Lord even when my circumstances look bleak. I am filled with the knowledge of Him and His love for me even when I do not sense His or anyone else's love. I am confident and assured that His word is true and it will not come back to me empty, but God Himself watches where His word goes and makes sure it is fulfilled in my life. Just thinking how glad I am that He's got this. I'm just saying.
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